Pia Weninger: Living with Bipolar no. 2: It is – what it is (Text)

It is – what it is.

 

It is –
what it is.

 

A hole in the chest.

 

No feelings inside –
just bitterness.

 

Want to breathe in and out.
Something is holding me back.
Can not describe this emptiness.

 

What if –
one day –
you realise…
Sunshine on your face is no more bright ?

 

That the brise of wind feels like little knives –

stabbed into your body and mind.

 

You once fought –
for WhO You ArE…
Well – educated.
Open – minded.
Forgiving.
Caring –
Just a human in its purity of being.

 

All of that stopped.
On one day –
you have started hating this other person inside of you…
WhO wants to just scream and let go.

 

The darkest black
you have ever seen –
is the colour –
of that other –
kind of being.

 

It is –

what it is.

 

You keep reminding yourself.
One day – it will be over.

 

Patience is the key –
to this non – wellbeing.
Just focus –
wait –
rest.
Because one day…
the hole in your chest –
will be filled –
with love and tenderness.

 

Created/Written by Pia Weninger.
Beitragsbild: Pia Weninger: WELTSCHMERZ, 2018