Pia Weninger: Living with Bipolar no. 2: It is – what it is (Text)

It is – what it is.

 

It is –

what it is.

 

A hole in the chest.

 

No feelings inside –

just bitterness.

 

Want to breathe in and out.

Something is holding me back.

Can not describe this emptiness.

 

What if –

one day –

you realise…

Sunshine on your face is no more bright ?

 

That the brise of wind feels like little knives –

stabbed into your body and mind.

 

You once fought –

for WhO You ArE…

Well – educated.

Open – minded.

Forgiving.

Caring –

Just a human in its purity of being.

 

All of that stopped.

On one day –

you have started hating this other person inside of you…

WhO wants to just scream and let go.

 

The darkest black

you have ever seen –

is the colour –

of that other –

kind of being.

 

It is –

what it is.

 

You keep reminding yourself.

One day – it will be over.

 

Patience is the key –

to this non – wellbeing.

Just focus –

wait –

rest.

Because one day…

the hole in your chest –

will be filled –

with love and tenderness.